: ' .. .:.... . ' ' ______________ : ________ : ' \ / .. .:. .. \ / : : \ /_________ \ / . .. ... .. . : .\ / /___ /\ \ / ______________ ___ _. : \ / / \ / \ \/ / \ \ \ \ \ . ...:..\ / _______/ \/ \ ___/__ / / / / / : /\ / / \ \/ \ / / / . sH! ' / \/ / / / \ / / . ... .:.... .. . :/ _______/ / / / _______/__ ___ __ .\ / / / / / / / / / / / \ / / / / / / / / / / / . . \ /\______/ / / / / \___ / / : \/ ____ \ / / / / / : \ / \ /\____/\ / / : : ________\/ \ / \ / / : ' \ / \/ \ /\ / : . ..:.. . \ / \/ \ / \ / \ / . ' : \/ F A N G \ / : ' ____ \ / . . .. .. .:.. . \ / presents \ / . . \/ \/ : : . ..:.. , : Artist......: Nicholas Krgovich : Album.......: Ouch : : Label.......: Tin Angel Records .. .:.. . Genre.......: Indie : Catnr.......: TAR083CD . ' Source......: CD , ; Rip.date....: 2018-10-24 Str.date....: 2018-10-26 Quality.....: 225kbps/44.1kHz/Joint Stereo . :.. .:. Url.........: http://www.tinangelrecords.co.uk/nicholas/index.ht ' ' , ________ ________ \ / \ / \ / \ / \ / # title time \ / \/ \/ 1. Rosemary 3:38 2. Time 2:22 3. Hinoki 3:20 4. Spa 4:06 5. Goofy 4:47 6. Belief 2:36 7. Guilt 3:39 8. Dog 4:05 9. Rejection 3:41 10. Lido 3:41 11. October 3:27 12. Field 4:00 ______ \ / ________ Runtime 43:22 ,\ /... . . .... .... \ / ' Size 73.85 ______ :\/ ', \ / , \ / ' '... ..\ /.. .. .....:. .. .... .. . ..\ /. : Release Notes: \/ , \/ , ' ' ,: Since 2002 IÆve been putting out albums. I havenÆt counted how :, : many, but 16 yearÆs worth anyway. I guess what makes ôOUCHö : :' stick out in the pile is the fact that itÆs a breakup album: a ': ,: concept as old as the hills but completely new to me. Up until :, : last year IÆd never fallen in love or experienced a broken : :' heart. Not even close really. I canÆt believe heartbreak is a ': ,: thing that happens to pretty much everybody! ItÆs so wild! Maybe :, : the wildest thing besides having a baby or death! No wonder I : :' managed to avoid it for so long. I donÆt think I could have ': ,: handled it. :, : : :' I got dumped in the spring of 2017, in a way that made the ': ,: whole, brief but potent relationship suddenly seem like a bit of :, : a joke. But then some deep, churning, real emotions started to : :' happen and life became hilariously heavy and impossible ': ,: feeling. The next morning I remember waking myself up before my :, : alarm sobbing loudly into the room. I was in hell, but was also : :' somewhere rolling my eyes at the absurdity of how ôon the noseö ': ,: all this was - Grappling with these primal, teenager-y feelings :, : as a person in their mid-thirties! A person who in many ways : :' knows who they are! A person whoÆs already had their Saturn ': ,: Return! All of it! :, : : :' At the time I hadnÆt written any new songs in almost three ': ,: years. Then, in short order, while at work pathetically pushing :, : a lawn mower, eyes red and bleary, I heard a melody and the : :' first line of something and then the second line and on and on. ': ,: For weeks I compulsively made up these songs, mainly at work in :, : my head, it was all surprising and extremely comforting. IÆd go : :' home and quickly thumb them out on the piano, usually just out ': ,: of the shower, dripping, wearing a towel, drinking a beer, :, : feeling like a true piece of shit. : :' ': ,: It was like this whole ordeal turned on a tap. IÆd finish a song :, : in my head and instantly hear the next one. I started to be like : :' ôI guess IÆm making an album?ö So I did. I borrowed a couple ': ,: mics and rented a compressor, my computer had just died so a :, : friend leant me an old MacBook Air. I made this thing at my : :' house, pretty quickly. Turning my small place into a jumble of ': ,: wires and cords and instruments and gear. Endlessly unplugging :, : the noisy fridge during takes and reaching around to plug it : :' back in. As an aesthetically driven monster I usually keep my ': ,: place pretty tidy and organized so it felt alien and new to just :, : let the place become feral and unruly. Outsides matching the : :' insides and all that. ': ,: :, : Thinking about it now, the whole thing was a pretty damn : :' heartening experience. Having this recording project happen, ': ,: haphazardly and out of necessity, constantly doing, not really :, : thinking, spacing out, having friends pop over to sing and play : :' and drink gin and bring their gentle wisdom while I whined ': ,: about my feelings. I felt very loved and supported during a time :, : where I could not have been harder on myself or felt more : :' grotesque or impossibly unloveable. Making this album gave ': ,: shape to a life event that just felt like this big sad :, : unanswerable blob. : :' ': ,: After I finished recording the album I finally listened to the :, : Sza record and thought about her a lot. IÆd watch her interviews : :' on YouTube and marvel at how she could be so transparent and ': ,: clear and confused and human. I remember listening to a Marc :, : Maron podcast where he interviewed Lorde. She had just put out a : :' breakup album and said something like she didnÆt write about ': ,: the specifics of the relationship because she didnÆt want to :, : build a totem to this one particular person etc. ThatÆs such a : :' shrewd move I thought! The songs can be open, they can live ': ,: longer! What I had just made with ôOUCHö was all specificity. A :, : record that is very literally a record of one particular : :' relationship with one particular person. ': ,: :, : In August 2017 I put together a six piece ensemble and we played : :' the entire record in a church, to an audience that I later ': ,: found out included some of his friends. How absurd and weirdly :, : appropriate! Presenting these songs in an opulent cathedral! In : :' front of his peers! ItÆs like a romantic stunt from the 1800s ': ,: or something! :, : : :' So, ôOUCHö is finally coming out this October. IÆm excited to ': ,: share it, even though my life feels completely different now, :, : and I relate to every one of these songs in a starkly different : :' way. Listening to the album now is like walking into a museum. ': ,: I was in such a shit place for a long time but even during the :, : worst of it I knew enough to regard the experience as a kind of : :' gift. Loving is such a wild and bold act! IÆm so grateful to ': ,: know that my heart is open, that I can be in love, have my heart :, : broken and survive. I didnÆt know that before or trust that to : :' be true at all. Plus now everybody and their dog knows IÆm as ': ,: gay as the day is long! I made a very gay break up album! What a :, : relief! : :' ': ,: Life is short and being afraid of shit is so boring, being :, : fearful of being free is such a waste. Love everybody, love! And : :' if it all goes awry and you end up with a bunch of sad ass ': ,: songs? Hooray for you! Love, NK :, : : :' ': : ' '.. ..' .. . :........... . . . . ............: . . ______________ ______________ \ / \ / \ / Shout out to all our homies from: \ / \ / \ / \ / iPC BOSS HiT2000 1way UKi i8 RNS \ / \ / RAGEMP3 MANDY DV8 pLAN9 BUTT \ / \ / \ / \/ ____ ____ \/ \ / F A N G \ / \/ 2 0 1 8 \/